Tuesday, 1-10-12
Bismillah. Today, I wrote in my calendar - “RUT” … that’s what it felt like most of the day, but I stepped outside just a moment ago to take the trash out and on the way down the driveway I noticed the clarity of the stars, and the crazy brightness of the moon, subhanAllah (tell me you saw it?). I remembered then, that at many times, in my life, in my loneliness, in the exhaustion of my travels, I have wished I were home in the mountains sitting on my childhood bed just enjoying a boring day with the comfort of both my parents sitting downstairs doing their thing … and so I was grateful. ShukrAllah for this rut of a day.
With that confession aside, my very best moment of the day came in the form of a reminder. Earlier, I was browsing through this journal that I use for all of my art exhibits, and a card fell out. A young girl, probably in her early 20’s, had come to my booth four times over the course of three days at the last conference I was exhibiting at. Every time she came, she bought something to replace the items she purchased before, which she unexpectedly kept gifting to others. She would always stay for a while, lingering around, sometimes talking to me, sometimes sitting on the pink stool I had out, sometimes watching me talk to customers, sometimes just smiling. The third day, she came back right before I was about to start breaking down, handed me a card, said thank you to me, and gave me her salaams with a huge bear hug and that smile of hers.
This card held a letter which I read today — it is a letter that I will treasure for the rest of my life, commit to heart, and always return to when I need reminding of why I have chosen this path, and, yes, to help me get out of my ruts.
If someone does something/ says something/ makes something that changes your heart for the better, please let them know, because it can also change their heart for the better.
Shukr Allah ♥
